i visited a log cabin
when the weather was hot
my black t-shirt clung to my body like a badge of honor
and a man looked at me
that’s all i ever wanted
i skated under a street light
with a boy i’d never met
he stuck his tounge down my throat
and put life inside of me.
my mom told me never to do that,
but i did it anyway.
and i lived a life full of sin
for two years and ten days
i stayed up all night polluting my lungs and kissing his fingers
after we shared doughnuts at GADS and survived another late night cooped up in Mass.
he left me one summer afternoon
and my life started
i sat under bright lights as he scooted next to me
and he held my hand
giving me more action than i had at seventeen
it was wrong it was wrong it was wrong wrong wrong
but for someone in her late teens,
i didn’t know what life meant to me.
goodbye to a platform that made my voice loud
when i had no idea how to speak
and messages tear at me all the time
but they’re not as loud
as when you asked me to be yours
in your car parked at the Sonic
i had to be in spanish class in 20 minutes
what a day that was.