(look at my hair! I was on my Tumblr over the weekend, and discovered this gem
from when I’d spend all of my time reblogging pictures of Ethan Hawke. I wish my bangs were as cool now.)
This month has been a hard one. I’ve lost the inspiration to write, and I was afraid that would happen when I started this blog. My previous post was really personal and the positive feedback on it (thank you! thank you!) has sort of thrown me for a loop on the direction I want this blog to go. There’s a David Bowie quote floating around somewhere about never preforming for the gallery. I think about that a lot when I get too far into my hesitations.
I’m back in Nashville, and I’ve been pretty quiet about it. I’ve been going back and forth to Bowling Green for school stuff and it’s made my head kind of rattle. I guess I’m in that phase of not knowing what’s going to happen when I graduate. That’s happening in May and it’s a V BIG DEAL that I haven’t paid attention to at all. I’m mostly spending my time measuring my self worth based off of other people, which is terrible, I know.
In the midst of all of this confusion over myself, I’m listening to Ryan Adams’ new record “Prisoner” a ton. I love finding music that reflects what I’m going through at the time. Breakup records are the best.
Speaking of that, I’m turning my breakup pain into something really cool and different for me that I’m very excited to share with you! Stay tuned for that; it’s the first time in ages that I’m really holding myself to a writing standard and I’m really healing well because of it.
I’ll be back to talking about records pretty soon! I promise!
lots of love,