I have nothing to say to you today
and I act like this will be the last word
as if you could fill it up with words and phrases
because speaking to you feels like shouting into the void.
each word reads like a promise
or a declaration
a promise so big
because as humans we want to cover all the bases
like we can reach the bottom line
that brings security and all of these other life affirming desires to life and there’s nothing you ever have to leave behind.
in the thick of it,
these are just words on a high-resolution phone
swiped with a flick of my finger like it was dancing around you
but the screen is only a platform for finger prints and it’s cracked in several places
and i have a thing about finger prints on an electronic device
and the worst thing of all,
these words holding all of my meaning and promise and understanding
with an emoji thrown in for good measure and for you to think i’ve got better things to do than to analyze and vigorously try to understand is the all too often chance..
you’ll leave me on “read.”